Last night, I was texting my boyfriend when he told me that his friend's cousin had just been murdered. I rarely write about my personal life or people I've lost/people that my family and friends have lost because I don't think it really belongs in my blog -plus I'm just kind of private. Anyways, I'm just so angry and confused that I had to write this down.
I don't know all the details but I'll tell you what I do know. Michel David was murdered on Friday by her ex-boyfriend, Daniel Shoemake. He basically just came by, they argued, and he shot her several times. Then he proceeded to shoot himself in his car. A million things ran through my mind after I read this story. Then I scrolled down and read the comments in response to the article and it pissed me off even more. Why the F*** are people here commenting on the reporters' lack of writing skills and gun rights when two people are dead. I just don't understand people these days. They really don't care about anyone but themselves. They read an article and focus on this stupid shit that doesn't even matter -two lives have been taken and all they care about is how the article was written?! WTF is wrong with this world.
Secondly, I keep wondering if this girl was abused (during their relationship together.) It just makes me wish that someone had done something -that someone had stepped in (if there had been any abuse.) It just makes me sick when I think of husbands/boyfriends physically or emotionally abusing their wives/girlfriends (or vice versa) -I just don't understand how you can do that to someone that you love or even once loved. It just makes me so angry because I do have people close to me who have been abused.
The guy was troubled -there's no doubt there. I just wish so badly that he hadn't taken this young girl's life as well as his own. I don't know this girl or her family personally but it breaks my heart knowing that there's a family out there hurting so badly because of this. It makes me sad that two precious lives have been wasted and for what? It just makes no sense. Time and time again, I try to convince myself that these things happen but sometimes, I just can't understand and I never will.
I think the reason that this tragedy hit so close to home is because something similar happened in my life. When I was in middle school, my school mate Elsa was murdered along with her entire family by her mother. Elsa and I weren't close friends but I knew her and she was just a really great person -she was smart and so kind to everyone around her. I remember the day that I found out she was killed, I ran into the car tearing and I said, "Mom, today was the worst day ever."
Her mother took her life, her stepfather's life, and her younger sister's life. She actually shot her little sister while cradling her in her arms and then shot herself right after. I think, what pains me the most is the fact that these people who love their daughter/husband/wife/girlfriend can do these these things and I just don't understand. To me personally, if I were to take my own life, I wouldn't want to take someone I love with me -that's insanely selfish.
Although I'm so angry with this guy Daniel as I was with Elsa's mother, I do hope that he rests in peace. I know I must sound crazy for saying that but I truly believe that people need to be forgiven. If there was just hate carried in peoples' hearts -the world would be very dark. I also hope that he's sorry for taking her life as I believe that God will forgive if you are truly sorry. I just hope and pray that Michel is resting in Heaven and that her family and friends are comforted at this time. Sorry for the rant and mixed emotions everyone -I can't exactly think straight right now.
Please pray for them and their families -I do believe that every prayer counts. You don't need to be religious or even believe in any God to pray. All that matters is what's in your heart.